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title: Wasting time — a story about motivation
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Sometimes <strong>I feel I'm wasting my fucking time.</strong> Ever had that feeling? — Sometimes I also feel that I'm being tossed the wrong client and the wrong bosses but that's a whole different story —. This is kind of a judgement leak in the way that I'm boiling to exhaustion.<!--more-->
<h3>Come on, honey, have a seat and tell me the story.</h3>
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	<li>Situation: I'm 2 days over a wrong deadline.</li>
	<li>Problem: no, passing the deadline is not an issue for me <em>anymore</em>. The problem is with how the deadline was set; why I, a freshly admitted collaborator, jumped into such a project with no experience; why I'm forced to work with inappropriate and slow tools such as a transformed version of the Zend Framework.</li>
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<h3>So you're sick of it. Suck it up and finish it, how 'bout that?</h3>
I'm not a cheap laborer. I work hard but I also work for passion. This project is a total waste of time because everyone working on it says it won't convert and won't be successful. Wait a minute, what?! You mean I'm spending three months (that's 480 hours approximately) of my life for absolutely nothing? That's definitely a motivation. So no sucking it up this time; and finishing it doesn't look that thrilling, does it?

<em>My drive is passion, people and the mind of the beautiful</em>. If I can't deliver, then one of these three is missing or corrupt (like a system file).